What a tough spot you've put us all into.i feel terrible.I know you want her back but you didnt give me the chance to apologize.now, guilt engulfs me like never before. how could i have been so shallow.she was so demure, so nice to me.
But i didnt take the effort to get to know her better.she was always there, whether i realized it or not.. silent and always smiling.she was there for me during my gig, she was the one who wished me luck and texted me like crazy during o level results.she went to job interviews with me, making me feel freakin secure in a weird environment.how could i forget.
we used to always share clothes and all.but i never really get to camwhore with her.my thoughts were "its okay, im spending the rest of my life with her too. why rush into camwhoring?"stupid. she never gotten to celebrate her birthday with us. fuck, its two weeks from now, damnit..if she had, i bet it would have been one of the most memorable..a birthday with zacky and vati and nadrah.this month, we hang our heads low.
my regrets can never be healed nor forgotten. why the fuck did i get angry at her for using my hair band.why the fuck didnt i go to the hospital to see her."next time, if someone calls, jawab! kalau orang mati ke, kau pon tak tahu" that phrase, always used by my mom before this, whenever i went home late w.o telling them. i hate those two sentences, hate them so much.i never knew how true they were. how true this whole situation was. how am i to face my parents and brother now.
i was high and shagged, having fun at Bt Regency. all the way till midnight. she was in there, all along. trying to survive. can you imagine how bad im feeling right now.
bestie told me not to beat myself up about it. how can i not.she always showed her concern for me. how am i to repay her now..i pity her now. heck, its too late. its always too late.
kak lina, i shed my tears for you today.i hope youre listening somehow. rest peacefully, knowing that troubles await and haunt you no more.God has taken you back, his decisions always final.we will take care of kiki, rest assured. and i will always be thinking of you.all thats left is memory.. so intangible, so un-securing.
went to the cemetary, and saw her sisters. i wonder how guiltiER they felt for shunning her off frm their family, for not accepting her as their sister. the great realization of sibling love. i tried to hold back my tears, but i just couldnt.
What a tough spot you've put us all into.i feel terrible.I know you want her back but you didnt give me the chance to apologize.now, guilt engulfs me like never before. how could i have been so shallow.she was so demure, so nice to me.
But i didnt take the effort to get to know her better.she was always there, whether i realized it or not.. silent and always smiling.she was there for me during my gig, she was the one who wished me luck and texted me like crazy during o level results.she went to job interviews with me, making me feel freakin secure in a weird environment.how could i forget.
we used to always share clothes and all.but i never really get to camwhore with her.my thoughts were "its okay, im spending the rest of my life with her too. why rush into camwhoring?"stupid. she never gotten to celebrate her birthday with us. fuck, its two weeks from now, damnit..if she had, i bet it would have been one of the most memorable..a birthday with zacky and vati and nadrah.this month, we hang our heads low.
my regrets can never be healed nor forgotten. why the fuck did i get angry at her for using my hair band.why the fuck didnt i go to the hospital to see her."next time, if someone calls, jawab! kalau orang mati ke, kau pon tak tahu" that phrase, always used by my mom before this, whenever i went home late w.o telling them. i hate those two sentences, hate them so much.i never knew how true they were. how true this whole situation was. how am i to face my parents and brother now.
i was high and shagged, having fun at Bt Regency. all the way till midnight. she was in there, all along. trying to survive. can you imagine how bad im feeling right now.
bestie told me not to beat myself up about it. how can i not.she always showed her concern for me. how am i to repay her now..i pity her now. heck, its too late. its always too late.
kak lina, i shed my tears for you today.i hope youre listening somehow. rest peacefully, knowing that troubles await and haunt you no more.God has taken you back, his decisions always final.we will take care of kiki, rest assured. and i will always be thinking of you.all thats left is memory.. so intangible, so un-securing.
went to the cemetary, and saw her sisters. i wonder how guiltiER they felt for shunning her off frm their family, for not accepting her as their sister. the great realization of sibling love. i tried to hold back my tears, but i just couldnt.
rest in peace. with love.
