Its been five days since school has started.. somehow i still feel akward and self-conscious. why? well.. i dont know exactly... maybe cause. 1. im the only malay from jss who went to pjc, so im kinda hangin round chinese people alot.. since the other malays have their own schoolmates who are malays, i suppose..
2. i TOTALLY miss my darlings and it makes me feel sucky at the thought of the fact that they are somehow or rather drifting apart from me, and getting on with their soon to be poly lives.
3. i have no idea how to get around this godforsaken school on my own. (!)
i really wish my besties would be on the same path as me since i soo rely on them when i fall back, but sadly, this is life and somehow we have to make it on our own no matter what. Sigh, insecurities aside, i suppose i should focus on my studies instead of moaning and whining like a little biatch that i am.
but so far, it HAS been pretty stable for the past two days, what with all the lectures and what not. the awesome part is, i met this new friend called elena and she's so like me in so many different ways..! so it's been me, her and a couple of sweet and darling new friends who are in the same subject combi. atleast i feel a little more comfortable, in a way...
so today, school ends reeeal early for us arts students so me and elena went to j.p to chill out at starbucks and go window shopping just to fill up our really freeeee time(=
so in the evening, i met afiq and kepo ard while he and his friend played basketball.. grabbed some ice kacang, talked... just wanted to get away from my haunting thoughts...
seriously, i have been thinking way too much lately, until i couldnt even sleep.. sighh
well, i cant wait for tomorrow!!!! finally no sch(for now) and i get to meet my dear girlfriends and guy friends and actually touch my guitar.. wheee~
Its been five days since school has started.. somehow i still feel akward and self-conscious. why? well.. i dont know exactly... maybe cause. 1. im the only malay from jss who went to pjc, so im kinda hangin round chinese people alot.. since the other malays have their own schoolmates who are malays, i suppose..
2. i TOTALLY miss my darlings and it makes me feel sucky at the thought of the fact that they are somehow or rather drifting apart from me, and getting on with their soon to be poly lives.
3. i have no idea how to get around this godforsaken school on my own. (!)
i really wish my besties would be on the same path as me since i soo rely on them when i fall back, but sadly, this is life and somehow we have to make it on our own no matter what. Sigh, insecurities aside, i suppose i should focus on my studies instead of moaning and whining like a little biatch that i am.
but so far, it HAS been pretty stable for the past two days, what with all the lectures and what not. the awesome part is, i met this new friend called elena and she's so like me in so many different ways..! so it's been me, her and a couple of sweet and darling new friends who are in the same subject combi. atleast i feel a little more comfortable, in a way...
so today, school ends reeeal early for us arts students so me and elena went to j.p to chill out at starbucks and go window shopping just to fill up our really freeeee time(=
so in the evening, i met afiq and kepo ard while he and his friend played basketball.. grabbed some ice kacang, talked... just wanted to get away from my haunting thoughts...
seriously, i have been thinking way too much lately, until i couldnt even sleep.. sighh
well, i cant wait for tomorrow!!!! finally no sch(for now) and i get to meet my dear girlfriends and guy friends and actually touch my guitar.. wheee~
JC life
