i wouldnt want my 100th post to be full of hatred, but it is.. i hate admin. stuff, seriously, its sucha drag.. why cant life just go on without all these irritating halts along the way... and fuck my parent and bro (shall not say which ones) for not caring about the fact that i lost my ic aeons ago... and when i need it for exam, when i complain complain, THEEEN they take actions.. and hesitative actions i might add!!!
really shows how much they CARE (or rather not care) no wonder the f.b quiz says im lackin of love in my life... -.-
and my bestfriend, for crying out loud didnt even tell me where she went.. got me texting like an idiot, waiting for no reply..
FUCK THE WORLD. nobody really cares.. when i do bad things, people notice and look down. when i do good things and care, people just act nice in their little plastic niceness, then just walk away. fuck la fuck this cheebai fuck thing..
i said a bunch of vulgarities infront of my dad this morning.. then he thought i was cussing him then lecture me. then i said "i didnt say you what!" then he keep quiet. guilty ke pe!?
fuck lah i want to get out of here.. why must apocalypse be on 2012? why not just 2010...
i realized that ive been saying that i hate my life since the age of 12.. (cuz i rmbr my mom saying its a sin to say that when i was at that age) wow..
i really think no one cares about me..i really think so.. i see people's blogs talking about how they would be crying and they would be calling their friends for support and their friends would cheer them up and stuff... yeah i dont really do that..
the only time i cried and my friends were there to support me was like, twice in my life, where i was slitting my wrist in sch(then i guess they got scared so they had to cheer me up) and when i couldnt take it and just cried and they were there and i couldnt hide it anymore... and maybe this other time in chi garden and i just felt like crying cause i dno what else to do at that point, cuz i cant like, not cry.. i dno.. like i force myself to cry, ynoe..
in other crying instances in my life, it'll just be a forced cry infront of rock, a "i cant stand it anymore" cry infront of my dad and brothers, a guilty cry infront of my mom when i hugged her this one time of my life,
and a genuine life sucks cry when im alone in the dark in my room, where no one cares.. yeah thats the best. cause nobody knows...
im in an angsty mood these few days.. why? cause nobody cares.. i will cuss as much as i want.. cause nobody cares.. im gonna be mean to you... why? cause you wont care.. im gonna be more quiet that i ever was. cause i know you wont care if i do so. right?
i think im gonna cry in the corner now.
p.s: i loooove staring at my bro's gf in hatred last night.. love..
i wouldnt want my 100th post to be full of hatred, but it is.. i hate admin. stuff, seriously, its sucha drag.. why cant life just go on without all these irritating halts along the way... and fuck my parent and bro (shall not say which ones) for not caring about the fact that i lost my ic aeons ago... and when i need it for exam, when i complain complain, THEEEN they take actions.. and hesitative actions i might add!!!
really shows how much they CARE (or rather not care) no wonder the f.b quiz says im lackin of love in my life... -.-
and my bestfriend, for crying out loud didnt even tell me where she went.. got me texting like an idiot, waiting for no reply..
FUCK THE WORLD. nobody really cares.. when i do bad things, people notice and look down. when i do good things and care, people just act nice in their little plastic niceness, then just walk away. fuck la fuck this cheebai fuck thing..
i said a bunch of vulgarities infront of my dad this morning.. then he thought i was cussing him then lecture me. then i said "i didnt say you what!" then he keep quiet. guilty ke pe!?
fuck lah i want to get out of here.. why must apocalypse be on 2012? why not just 2010...
i realized that ive been saying that i hate my life since the age of 12.. (cuz i rmbr my mom saying its a sin to say that when i was at that age) wow..
i really think no one cares about me..i really think so.. i see people's blogs talking about how they would be crying and they would be calling their friends for support and their friends would cheer them up and stuff... yeah i dont really do that..
the only time i cried and my friends were there to support me was like, twice in my life, where i was slitting my wrist in sch(then i guess they got scared so they had to cheer me up) and when i couldnt take it and just cried and they were there and i couldnt hide it anymore... and maybe this other time in chi garden and i just felt like crying cause i dno what else to do at that point, cuz i cant like, not cry.. i dno.. like i force myself to cry, ynoe..
in other crying instances in my life, it'll just be a forced cry infront of rock, a "i cant stand it anymore" cry infront of my dad and brothers, a guilty cry infront of my mom when i hugged her this one time of my life,
and a genuine life sucks cry when im alone in the dark in my room, where no one cares.. yeah thats the best. cause nobody knows...
im in an angsty mood these few days.. why? cause nobody cares.. i will cuss as much as i want.. cause nobody cares.. im gonna be mean to you... why? cause you wont care.. im gonna be more quiet that i ever was. cause i know you wont care if i do so. right?
i think im gonna cry in the corner now.
p.s: i loooove staring at my bro's gf in hatred last night.. love..
fuck the world 1oo times
