i did it again. inflicted deliberate pain on myself for no apparent reason.
i couldnt sleep last night. again.. like every night i suppose.. Sixpence none the richer is on reapeat for hours and hours. my mind travels far but i am never asleep. its frustrating, y'noe.. thinking about all the possibilities, all the could-haves and what-ifs. and about the things that happened in the past. its physical pain, this mental breakdown. it is. i hate crying
so yesterday lilly bailed on me last minute. in the end, hang out with wann to waste some time. kinda crazy. i dont know if it seems like im hiding my emotions, but i can totally be normal with him. then met up with ewe at j.e oh my goshh.. i miss her so very much. we hugged the moment i saw her and then everything fell into place.
went to her house, and FOR THE FIRST TIME, an auntie did not say anything about my hair. i love ewe's mom for being so cool.. (: then, i sort of slept in her room while she bathed and got ready. i really missed her room. time flies when we chill in her room, seriously. its like magic. and fidi was asleep so it was okay hosay.
then went to scape to meet up with naf, nad, farahin, adelina, afiqah, and nad's bf and cousins. fleeeaaa market packin up already. managed to grab some stuffs for people's birthday. apparently, i got a belated bday gift myself. its a charm bracelet. its so gorgeous..
then went to eat lasagne and catch up. damn i wanted to hang out more with naf but it was just so late and i was so tired and sleepy.. next time, definitely.
so i got home at around 11 plus, and "slept" at around 12 plus. well, not really.
i did it again. inflicted deliberate pain on myself for no apparent reason.
i couldnt sleep last night. again.. like every night i suppose.. Sixpence none the richer is on reapeat for hours and hours. my mind travels far but i am never asleep. its frustrating, y'noe.. thinking about all the possibilities, all the could-haves and what-ifs. and about the things that happened in the past. its physical pain, this mental breakdown. it is. i hate crying
so yesterday lilly bailed on me last minute. in the end, hang out with wann to waste some time. kinda crazy. i dont know if it seems like im hiding my emotions, but i can totally be normal with him. then met up with ewe at j.e oh my goshh.. i miss her so very much. we hugged the moment i saw her and then everything fell into place.
went to her house, and FOR THE FIRST TIME, an auntie did not say anything about my hair. i love ewe's mom for being so cool.. (: then, i sort of slept in her room while she bathed and got ready. i really missed her room. time flies when we chill in her room, seriously. its like magic. and fidi was asleep so it was okay hosay.
then went to scape to meet up with naf, nad, farahin, adelina, afiqah, and nad's bf and cousins. fleeeaaa market packin up already. managed to grab some stuffs for people's birthday. apparently, i got a belated bday gift myself. its a charm bracelet. its so gorgeous..
then went to eat lasagne and catch up. damn i wanted to hang out more with naf but it was just so late and i was so tired and sleepy.. next time, definitely.
so i got home at around 11 plus, and "slept" at around 12 plus. well, not really.
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